I am Shelly, I am a fun loving wife and mother to angels in heaven who enjoys cheering others to fulfil their God given purpose. I love to inspire others and I am slowly but passionately becoming all God has purposed me to be. I am a thinker and a follower of Christ who wears my heart on my sleeve. I enjoy cooking, spending time with my friends, exploring the outdoors, admiring nature and taking pride in my home. I am caring, compassionate and love all things that are beautiful. I would describe myself as an extrovert, who has been living a lie as an introvert through social conditioning (guess what this is about to change!!!).
I work as a clinical service manager for a health institution in England. Writing and talking is in my blood. I enjoy talking and have always done so from an early age such that all my school reports stated how talkative I was from primary to secondary school. It’s taken me all these years to realise that the very thing that I was mocked about or was perceived to be my weakness which is “talking” might be the secret of my purpose and who I really am. I come alive when I talk, words just flow out of my mouth like an endless river, in fact I can converse with anyone including strangers about any subject effortlessly.
How I started writing
My love for writing came to fruition in November 2013 when I lost my unborn baby. That was a particularly difficult and trying time for me as I had just been discharged from hospital following emergency surgery. I was off work and house bound for several weeks while recovering which left me with a lot of time on my hands. It was during that painful and dark season in my life that I put pen to paper and began to write and outpour all my emotions, my fears and emotional pain in my journal. Writing was so therapeutic and soothing that I carried on to this date. This is how this blog was birthed. During that time, I also made it my goal to encourage, inspire others, be inspired by others, forgive and travel light in this journey through life, while in pursuit of my God-given purpose.
There was also something about that dark season that led me to some serious soul searching. I went through a period of guilt and shame associated with past mistakes which kept creeping up in my mind, blaming myself for the loss of my baby. I can truly say that my mind was like a battlefield, such that I had to download these thoughts from my head into my journal or else I would have lost my mind completely. Thank God for his mercy that I am here and strong enough to share my experiences with others and on this platform.
During my period of reflection, I also had time to think about how fortunate I had been to have survived the medical trauma I had encountered. This brought about a sense of gratitude as it brought to mind those people that were in worse situations than I was in, some with terminal illnesses and slowly I started to feel grateful for being alive and for the small things such as having my sense of smell, breathing fresh air, appreciating my surroundings the blue skies and the sound of the birds singing outside even though I was experiencing emotional and physical pain. With that perspective, I believe that is how my journey to emotional healing began.
Choose love instead of hate
Sometimes when all is going well for us we take some of these small things for granted in pursuit of what we feel are the big things to make us happy until we face trials which force us to stop and think. In that realisation we find that the small things are the big things. So I urge you to please take time to enjoy the small things in life, be happy, stop hating, pray, live, laugh, love and forgive, create memories with your children and loved ones.
Those of you who are parents savour those moments when kids are just being kids, tell your loved ones you love them, refrain from jealousy, hate and unforgiveness as it is not good for the soul. It is poisonous. I now truly believe that happiness is achieved when we are grateful for the small things and moments. Happiness is all around us if we can take time to look to appreciate the small daily victories that go unnoticed while at the same time embracing the not so perfect things or situations in our lives. Happiness can be a state of mind and how we view our surroundings, situations and the world at large. Clear your mind body and soul in order to be productive, the world needs you … yes you can make a difference.
However, it has taken me this long to confront my fears and finally find the courage to follow my passion of writing and sharing on this blog with those people that resonate with it. If I can encourage some people to pursue their passion, live purposefully in spite of trials, then together we can have a positive impact in our society, maybe even empower more people to be courageous to build a better world in love, peace and harmony. My life has not always been smooth sailing, I have been through ups and down, I have fallen and got up, I have faced storms and survived. All these trials have led me to the person that I am today, I am stronger, sharper and ready to share my experiences to encourage others.
By taking time out to encourage you I am also encouraging my inner person and strengthening myself and renewing my mind. This blog is a mirror image my life, struggles and issues that I have battled with. There is power in inspiring others, because as I do that I am also healing within. I believe that embracing my authentic self and understanding how God has empowered me are the first steps toward living in divine authority.
This is my journey to authentic and victorious living, while trying to encourage others to find their purpose or authentic self. I am also discovering myself on this journey, I am in the process of trying to live my life as God has intended for me. I have realised that as each day passes without me taking a step into living a more meaningful life, I was already starting to regret all that I could have been. Years ago when I graduated from university with my first degree in health care, I thought that was it until the urge to pursue my purpose was so overwhelming inside me that I realised that there is more burning fire inside of me than where I am now.
If this blog resonates with you, join me on this journey, to discover how I am discovering my authentic self. I am not there yet but I am making steps toward my purpose. Together we can break barriers which may be preventing you from pursuing your purpose.
Thank you for taking the time to visit my blog!
Shelly Webb x
